The Dinner Diaries

The Dinner Diaries

wow

that's all i can say

it makes me go back to when i kept a diary at work while pumping adolfo's milk

ha

you can imagine the physical talent it took for me to get into a position comfortable enough to write the daily one page soliloquy in pencil to my son

i don't know when he will read these notebooks

after a while i'd collected about 6 filled 5"x7" notebooks of random thoughts peppered with i love yous to the little boy i was feeding from distance

i tried to talk about things that i'd done that day or thoughts i had about things i'd seen

sometimes it was hard to write a full page so on these occasions lots of love love love words to my boy

i kept a framed picture of him to look at as inspiration, all the literature about nursing, working mothers recommended this set up so that i could produce lotso milk for my baby

sometimes i knew why i was writing and did so with a purpose

mostly i recorded events, and not very well i'm sure

the notebooks have a place on our bookshelves in the living room

nobody will notice them, partly because the people who come see us are bombarded with the living chavezes and probably cannot think about what we might have housed on our shelves

and partly because there is much more to look at on those two shelves

but one day i know adolfo and paola will come across them

and when they do, i wonder what they will think, i wonder what it will mean to them...